I feel cursed because this has taken so much out of me. Money. Time. Energy.
Money-because I have spent a lot trying to recover by going to therapy and never knowing what was wrong with me.
Also I am underemployed even though I have tried not to be, so I don't make very much. My livelihood has suffered.
Time-lost time not knowing. I was married for a while, no kids. The Ex was a narc if not sociopath. I couldn't do the kid thing, which is probably good, at least with the ex. I think I was smeared publicly at my work place back then, but I can't prove it. I was definitely smeared in the personal family realm. The EX was the long suffering good spouse.
Energy- I have been stolen from energetically, which means a loss of creativity and energy just to get through the day sometimes. I get through them thankfully, but it's often a big toll.
I have been targeted by stealthy bullies more than once.
I have bumped into the same ole crappy road blocks no matter what I do.
Any ideas on how to not feel/be cursed anymore? Anyone else felt this?
Thanks!
Money-because I have spent a lot trying to recover by going to therapy and never knowing what was wrong with me.
Also I am underemployed even though I have tried not to be, so I don't make very much. My livelihood has suffered.
Time-lost time not knowing. I was married for a while, no kids. The Ex was a narc if not sociopath. I couldn't do the kid thing, which is probably good, at least with the ex. I think I was smeared publicly at my work place back then, but I can't prove it. I was definitely smeared in the personal family realm. The EX was the long suffering good spouse.
Energy- I have been stolen from energetically, which means a loss of creativity and energy just to get through the day sometimes. I get through them thankfully, but it's often a big toll.
I have been targeted by stealthy bullies more than once.
I have bumped into the same ole crappy road blocks no matter what I do.
Any ideas on how to not feel/be cursed anymore? Anyone else felt this?
Thanks!