Trust issus

I find the hardest thing to do is to trust myself. Decsions, opininons about people, taste. Everything seems to change, fade away. Like I cant bulid a coherent life. I onnly recently discovered that I live life going the wrong direction. Instead of doing what needs to be done. Im looking for what Im allowed to do. Like Im waiting for premission. Yes, like a child. Growing up was like being under constant surveillance. It was very scary. Nowhere to hide.

The thing that helped me after the narc relationship & I had no idea what was real- was to do my best to quiet my mind enough to absorb what people like Richard, Dana @ Thrive After Abuse & Sam said in their videos. The truth sounds & feels different when I hear it. It has a different quality. That’s how I rebuilt myself, I applied one truth at a time. 3+ years later & that process is still helping me build & rebuild.

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