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As I was watching the last couple vids by Richard and the podcast, I realize that I'm still holding on to old patterns.
Like I'm noticing that a part of me is resisting the healing process lately and I want go back into this childlike ambivalent state.
Today I woke up with the immature mindset again and then decided that I must pull myself out of this or I'm not going to get
anything done. So I did EMDR, audio affirmations, and deep breathing for 20 mins with timer set. I'm still in shock at how simple
and quickly this appears to snap me back into reality and the present moment.
There is a reason I had slipped backwards but I won't go into it right now. I'm a little better at coping with the setback and
not getting completely derailed which I do consider to be progress. Anyway, I was just going to say that I recognize how
important my intent is when it comes to really getting over this stuff. I slide backwards because I've been so comfortable
with misery for so long that its as if there is a fear of healing and moving forward. A part of me doesn't believe that I can be any other way than I have been.I didn't expect so much conflict with the healing process.
After this last session of EMDR/NLP, I really noticed how stubborn I can be with regards to accepting reality.
This is really is something you have to try to make an effort to make yourself concious of on a daily basis
because it just doesn't come natural at all for me yet. I have noticed some improvement, and I'am slowly
becoming aware of these states where I dissociate and feel like I'm in a flashback. I do feel that doing the
EMDR can also help me come out of the flashback a little bit eazier. Later everyone!
Like I'm noticing that a part of me is resisting the healing process lately and I want go back into this childlike ambivalent state.
Today I woke up with the immature mindset again and then decided that I must pull myself out of this or I'm not going to get
anything done. So I did EMDR, audio affirmations, and deep breathing for 20 mins with timer set. I'm still in shock at how simple
and quickly this appears to snap me back into reality and the present moment.
There is a reason I had slipped backwards but I won't go into it right now. I'm a little better at coping with the setback and
not getting completely derailed which I do consider to be progress. Anyway, I was just going to say that I recognize how
important my intent is when it comes to really getting over this stuff. I slide backwards because I've been so comfortable
with misery for so long that its as if there is a fear of healing and moving forward. A part of me doesn't believe that I can be any other way than I have been.I didn't expect so much conflict with the healing process.
After this last session of EMDR/NLP, I really noticed how stubborn I can be with regards to accepting reality.
This is really is something you have to try to make an effort to make yourself concious of on a daily basis
because it just doesn't come natural at all for me yet. I have noticed some improvement, and I'am slowly
becoming aware of these states where I dissociate and feel like I'm in a flashback. I do feel that doing the
EMDR can also help me come out of the flashback a little bit eazier. Later everyone!
