trying very hard to get out of a relationship with what i believe to be a narcasist, everything is text book, hes gaslighted me, completely ruined my self esteem, contantlt triangulating me with his exs and new women,i do think theres some fight in me but he has 2 holds over me, 1 is he knows about some abuse when i was a child, wich would absoloutely tear my life apart if it got out, and no 2 he is saying he feels suicidle this is massive to me as my brother commited suicide and my godson, as you can imagine im petrified, i cannot bear the weight of it, its making me very ill. i know he doesnt love me n wondering weather just to play game till a new suply comes along for him, or rise up, n get rid, 1 option i wsd thinking was he has new counseller he can afford these n has had at least 3 in past 2 years, all advise him to get away from his abusive girlfriend :-) ironically i wish he would but hes above there advice too i suppose, could i offload the suicide stuff in email to her? or is that dead dodgy? i just am crumbling under this threat, he said he would leave a letter implicating me too :-( i feel so trapped i feel suicidle when im with him as he constantly telling me im bdp, from family of nutters, old, twisted jelous, its so hard to take, yet the threats petrifying me,i know i should walk, but i cant carry that weight after my bro n godson, what serious option do i have?
thanks for any input
thanks for any input